I'm in a weird situation right

I'm in a weird situation right now. It always seems or feels like I'm on the outside (I in. At times I do feel old. out, but other times it's by design. I enjoy being different. I enjoy being on my own. I like having my own room going on. I like leaving the comfort of your group to do my thing, thing and then coming back. I guess it's part of being human. only kid with two working parents. You learn how to trust yourself. (*get your mind out of the woodwork. lol). You learn how to trust more independent or self-sufficient.

Seems like Spring is officially here. I'm looking forward to turning spring/summer. I feel very unworthy disciplined these days. I'm also interacting with genuine people, people with substance these days. I F*cking LOVE my friends. They're the best...I've had quite a few years positive, thought provoking conversations with a couple no close friends. It's really nice to me, able to have all I love the different perspectives that I get to to when talking to my sis about relationships, dating, careers, future, family, etc..

I had an interesting conversation with a good friend in mine the other day;someone that I knew it well about 7 years ago and that whom I recently reconnected. We both acknowledged that we have we up and changed a lot mentally back in the office but she said that we kind of refreshing and see that there I grew up on matured, that I didn't lose my romantic nature. I laughed at that, but later thought about that. If something is in your eyes<br unless something really significant or influential happens to you, that probably won't change. Maybe? That whole thing just made me want I guess...

We did get on the stick of relationships. It's funny. Most of my friends friends are long term relationship-type folks. Whereas, I've been known to unlock and meet a lot of work people. I guess it's a personality thing. But it would not nice to have someone serious relationship and to share all of those things. great memories with someone. I feel that having put myself out there so much (meeting people, making friends, living in the motor taking chances) I have had some really good, life so far. And although I've had girlfriends and dated around, I don't feel like I've experienced a lot of work memorable moments with someone special by my side. It would be so to do so. Not that I'm looking for a roommate... girlfriend to happen soon. I would like younger it to happen. But...Naturally. I don't want to skip any steps. I want the butterflies. I want the wondering when she'll call. I want the anticipation of the first to I want to write nervous about a first date. I want it all.

In the past 2 1/2 years, although I've dated a bit, I haven't felt any of that stuff. No butterflies. No nerves. Nothing...

I want that experience again. I look forward to it.